Day 016

[1] I was sleeping, woke up cause NT came to room. After 15 mins, another door knock, a person with a letter and a list standing. He gave the letter to NT and NT to me. Written his father passed away, leaving a blind mother and daughter. He (person) is mute too. The list was of who have donated with values like 500, 200. A kind of pressure was developing inside me (maybe he was constantly signaling me like write name here in the list, that "write here" was pushing me to write something ultimately some value, some money). I asked NT to combinely donate. He refused by saying he did in first year. The no option was hidden in the mist of pressure. My heart was ready to give ₹10 (I usually say no cause I saw 3-4 examples of fake in past). But that unknown psychological pressure pushed me for ₹50. I was first in the list for value below 200. I overthinked a lot cause all I have now is my family's hand earned money. If I would have earned it, maybe I overthink less.

[2] I think, I overthinked too much. I should just let it go. Just set-up my new windows installation. Downloaded Gemini CLI, Revo uninstaller. Didn't write tasks for today. 5:00 AM sleep.


 

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